Chapter 31
(Kara's POV)

Okay, would someone please hand me a frakking script here, because honestly, I swear that this is starting to feel like a very sick joke. I mean, I get what the old man is saying about the president outranking him and all that crap, I really do... but from what I've been told his first reaction when I jumped back to Caprica was to stage a coup, one that left the fleet divided and ended with Lee and the president being 'protected' by Zarek out of all people on the 'Astral Queen', so why the hell is the old man being so frakking reasonable all of a sudden?

Sure, things have been better since we came back. The fleet is back together, we finally have some semblance of a clue as to where the frak it is that we are supposed to be going and he's managed to come to an understanding with Roslin and Lee. Hell, he even seemed to be relieved when he saw me down on Kobol, but that was before he found out that I had lied to him about Caprica... or at least that I hadn't told him the whole truth.

I was fully expecting him to rip me a new one for that as soon as I walked in here but he didn't. In fact, just like Lee and Helo, the old man seems to be determined to kill me with kindness... only he is taking it to the extreme with the whole hugging thing. What the frak was that all about? If he had just punched me, yelled at me or thrown me in hack, that I would have known how to handle but when he hugged me I just didn't know what to do, how to respond. All I knew was that there was a part of me that felt safe and didn't want him to let go --ever-- and that in turn scared the crap out of me.

I may trust the old man with my life but I also know that that kind of trust can come back to haunt me... and that it probably will. That was a lesson that was beaten into me early on... unfortunately there also seems to be a part of me that never got the frakking memo.

All I know is that I have to get out of here, I have to figure out what the frak is going on but at the same time I know that's not likely to happen any time soon. So far the old man is showing no signs of being willing to let me go and I'm afraid I'm going to screw this up... big time.

Oh well, if he was looking for one surefire way to drive me nuts, he seems to have found it... and --seeing how I can't just walk out of here-- it looks like I'm going to have no choice but to try to ride this one out.